Word Count: 3,799
Date: 08/23/04
Series: Mini
Rating: K+
Category: Relationships
Pairing/Focus: Lee, Kara
Warnings: Darker Fic, blame Three Doors Down, if you're
looking for a happy ending, this may not be the best place to look.
Summary:
Spoilers/Disclaimers:
<You're still acting like you're everyone's best friend. Be careful out there? Good hunting is what you say.>
The words, dear Lords, if she could just take back those words. They burned inside her mind as she waited inside the pod, waiting, knowing that they would be the last she had ever said to him.
Nobody seemed to notice Kara as she sat against the bulkhead of the pod, watching the lift. It had to move, it had to. Yet she knew it never would. She had seen the truth in his face, in his eyes after those words, when he had turned away wordless from her and stepped over to his Viper.
"Lords of Kobol hear my prayer…" Those were not the words she wanted to say either. Kara never had been a religious type, not until she had come to stay next door to the Adama's. Bounced from one foster house to another, never staying anywhere long because of her temper more than anything. The Adama boys though, they had changed everything in her life. Instead of laughing at her ragged clothes, ill cut hair, and the fact she thought she could just invite herself over to play with them, they had just grinned and found another Viper to add into the mix.
Five years of bouncing from one `family' to another ended in just a day, and she doubted either one of them, Lee nor Zak, knew just exactly what they had meant to her. An anchor in the world, two faces that had not changed when she had woken up in the morning. Frak, she had even gone to church with them that first end-day, even with all the bad memories it had brought back.
Now, only two weeks after Kara and everyone else had lost the colonies, they had lost someone else. Someone who Kara could not help but think was even more important to their survival than everyone else in the fleet. Hot tears tracked down her face, and she furtively wiped them away looking around to see if anyone had seen.
<You're still acting like you're everyone's best friend…>
That phrase in particular rang through he thoughts, because it was not the first time she had said it. In fact, if there was one thing she had said to Lee more than that, it was probably only `Hello'.
They'd had a fight something stupid, something that should have been forgiven as soon as it happened. Teenage years are hard though, and Kara knew that the reason she had not, was because she was confused about what exactly he was to her, what exactly she was to him. She had taken more than a little grief of it over the years, and had turned to a new group to smother those feelings. Hung out with the rougher crowd, the one that seemingly did not care if she was man or woman, as long as she swaggered and boasted, and pretended she was as tough as they were.
<You're still acting like you're everyone's best…> The second time she had said it to him, was even more memoriable. Lee had gotten the shit kicked out of him, and it was all because of her. The crowd had turned after that first week, and the grabbing and demanding had begun. They had her backed to a wall, guy and girls alike, pulling at her clothes, jeering the others on. It was all the bad times all over again. Then out of nowhere she was not alone in the middle of that group, fighting, kicking and screaming. Lee was there. She never wondered why, Lee was always there. It had not been going good until Zak and half a dozen of Lee's other friends had waded into the fight. She still remembered his answer.
<I'm not everyone's best friend, but I am yours Kara.>
It had been said more over the years, during secondary school, on into the Academy, but it had turned into more of a catch phrase between them both. Something that they could rely upon, something that seemed to have a deep understanding of who they were to each other even through the thickest of it.
<Congratulations Kara.>
<Frak it Lee, why are you still acting like you're everyone's….>
<Frak that Lee, Congratulations, isn't what I want you to say…>
It had been the first time she had really ever kissed him. Sure she had done it before, but always a peck on a cheek, a brush of the lips. This time she kissed him. Kissed him as she had never done so with anyone else before, poured all of her heart into it, and pulled back to see only the hurt and the pain in his eyes. It was not what she had wanted to see there, and she knew that it was as much because of her actions, what she had asked of him, as it was for something lost that could not be had.
<I'm your best friend Kara…. Its all… Its all we can have…>
Now though she could not even have that.