Word Count: 3,000+
Date: 11/15/05
Series: Season 2
Rating: M+
Category: Relationship
Pairing/Focus: Kara/Anders. Lee/Dee, Kara/Lee, Adama
Warnings: graphic sexual situations/romance/angst/language
Summary: They needed a way to bleed off the raw energy, to
claim possession, because that was important..
Spoilers/Disclaimers: seasons 1 & 2; I don't own these characters, Ron Moore does
Original fic: Every Time I Close My Eyes
Sequel:
Kara woke up and was momentarily disorientated as to her surroundings. The warm body half draped across her reminded her where she was. She smiled. Trying not to wake him she reached back and fumbled for his clock. Frak. She had to leave soon.
He began to stir and rubbed his stubble over her still sensitive breast. Kara grabbed his hair and pulled his head back. “Play nice.”
He blinked a few times feigning innocence but she noticed the corner of his mouth curl with a hint of a smile. Smiling herself she let go of his hair and his mouth went straight to her breast, soothing away the soreness with his tongue.
“Not fair.” She complained but arched her back to press herself harder against his face. She felt him stiffen against her thigh. His hand stroked possessively along her side, pausing to knead the swell of her hip. Lords he was going to frak her again, she could hardly wait.
Moving his way up, he nibbled her collarbone. Kara twisted beneath him, urging him higher with her hands on his back. No matter how fast they had to be, he always made sure to pay attention to her neck. Whether because he knew she loved it, or he had a kink of his own, she didn’t care. Tilting her head back, she exposed her throat and immediately his warm lips and moist tongue paid their devotion.
“Sam, Sam……ooooh yes……”
He shifted over her body properly and she spread beneath him. That finally got a groan out of him.
“How long have we got?” His mouth drifted up to her chin.
“Less than……oh frak……half an hour.” He was sliding his length firmly between her legs, causing a maddening friction against her clit.
Finally he kissed her and entered her with smooth precision. After all the practice they’d been getting she expected no less.
“Ahh……you’re so perfect, Kara.” His voice was low and rough. He reached down and hooked her knee higher to deepen his penetration.
Kara nearly buckled beneath him. She held nothing back as his thrusts quickened. Hanging onto his shoulders, she relaxed as much as she could to allow every stroke and quiver and moan to wash over her soul.
“Sam…Sam…ah…ah…” She cried out as he shifted angle and repeatedly hit the perfect spot. The bed starting creaking in protest, he was fucking her that hard.
“Kara…need…you…more…more…” It was too much and she broke beneath him, light flashed behind her eyes as wave after wave of intense pleasure coursed through her body. Without giving her a moment’s reprieve, he continued to thrust into each tingling pulse causing her to forget how to breathe. He finally released himself with a final stroke and ground into her, allowing the heat to flood through her body.
Slowly air and vision returned.
Anders grinned against her skin, still trying to catch his breath. “I knew there was a reason I kept you around.”
She weakly slapped his shoulder. “You’re lucky I can fit you in between all my other lovers.” But her remark lost its edge when she whimpered as he slipped out of her body.
He was looking just a little too smug.
He was now lying flat on his back beside her, so she sat up and straddled his body. He stroked the tops of her thighs and she watched his heated gaze land on one spot after another over her flushed skin. She loved it when he looked at her like that. She bent down over his body to reach for his clock again. His hands went straight to her waist to keep her still and she tried to ignore his hot mouth sucking her nipple as she mentally went through her schedule for the day.
She had to hurry, CAP was in less than an hour and she needed to make an appearance at the briefing beforehand. The damned CAG gave her not an inch of leeway these days. He was on her ass every chance he got.
Anders obviously noticed the change in her body language. He let go of her waist and smacked her bottom. “You better get going before I have my way with you again.” He grinned at her, but she could see a reserve behind his eyes. She knew what it was and yet she still refused to discuss it with him. She liked the way things were and knew if they had that conversation, their relationship would change.
He had only said that he loved her once and she had pretended to be asleep. He never said it again, but it was written all over his face whenever he saw her, kissed her and especially when he took her. Over the months, he had worked out that there was something going on with her superior officer, though the fact that the CAG was expecting a child with another woman was the only reason she had managed to deflect his questions.
It was all a bit of a frakking mess actually.
Kara desperately wished Lee would get over his need to frak with her. He made his own choices and now he had to live with them. She was doing her best to find happiness and refused to regret that Lee’s choice was never her. Sam made her happy. Kara wanted to be happy.
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Kara was two minutes late for Lee’s boring briefing. He completely ignored her though when it was over he asked her to stay behind. The other pilots were over the gossip factor of CAG and Lead Pilot. The fights that used to end in giggles or fists now permeated a bitterness that made everyone feel uncomfortable.
She stood at attention, not wanting to give him more fuel to direct his anger at her. Her skin was still glowing from the fantastic sex and now all she wanted to do was go fly her Viper.
“You missed the start of my briefing, Lieutenant.” Lee’s voice was emotionless, but his eyes narrowed as he noticed the obvious rosy hue to her normally pale skin. Kara shifted uncomfortably under his scrutiny as his eyes lingered on the marks on her throat.
Frak this! She lifted her chin in defiance, gave him a better look.
His eyes went hard as he locked gazes with her, and the steel blue made her stop breathing for a moment.
“It’s unacceptable, Lieutenant. The next time I report it to the XO.”
Kara refused to respond and tried to break eye contact, but Lee was like a crash she couldn’t look away from. Hating how ridiculous they had become she tried another tack. She purposely softened her features and gave him a slight smile, testing if there was still any hint of their friendship that remained.
It threw him off and he backed down. “You missed the change in schedule, Kara. You’re on CAP with me this afternoon.”
A buzz went straight through her. Lee hadn’t scheduled a CAP between them in months.
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The Commander put a pair of headphones on, deciding he needed to keep up with the CAP activities. He glanced at Dee as her mouth settled in a bitter twist. It was her job to listen and they were both very interested in the communications between pilots, these pilots.
Commander Adama felt too old to try and work out what was going on with his son and the women in his life. All he knew was that Dee seemed unhappy and Lee was in a permanent bad mood. And Kara, well Kara didn’t come to him any more like she used to. She had completely stepped aside, giving Dee her place in his heart.
Like it could ever be that simple.
He loved Dee, she was part of his family and now she was having his grandchild. But Kara was all that he had for two years when not another member of his family would communicate with him, leaving him to shoulder the grief and guilt of Zak’s death by himself. If it wasn’t for Kara, that is.
Kara held a special place in his heart. He saw his younger self in her abilities and cockiness. But her vulnerable heart was what made her dear to him. She had nearly self destructed over Zak’s death. They had mourned him together and found mutual support and trust in each other. The more he got to know her, the more he regretted the loss of not having her as his daughter. Having Kara around made the burden of command that much easier. He couldn’t love her more if he tried.
He thought his eldest son loved her too.
He glanced over at Dee again. Obviously he was wrong.
Raptor communications started coming in. Helo and Racetrack were voicing their appreciation at the manoeuvres Starbuck and Apollo were performing. They always flew in complete harmony. He guessed that even estrangement couldn’t dampen that.
Kara’s whoop of laughter filled his ears. Lee sounded breathless and happy. It actually broke his heart a little.
He took off the headset. He didn’t want to hear what was coming next. He knew it already. Both of them seemed incapable of using their call signs when in the heat of battle or their private dance in cold space. They always spoke each others names too intimately. Completely unaware, they both gave away too much.
He watched Dee’s face set into a blank mask. His heart went out to her. He idly wondered if she regretted forsaking Billy for Lee. It was no secret on Galactica that CAG and Lead Pilot meant more to each other than anyone else. Dee could not have been that blind – surely.
Situations like this made him wish that he could still enforce military protocols of fraternisation. He wished there was another choice for CAG, for Lead pilot, for Communications Officer. But they had no other choices or options and people needed more in their lives than endless shifts, killing and death. Some were making a better go of it than others. Kara was making a go of it with the Resistance Leader, somebody Anders.
His fatherly instinct kicked in and made him wonder if this man was good enough for Kara. He wondered if he’d made a mistake in giving him a training position on Galactica so he could legitimately stay on board. He wondered what gossip started when Lee finally got private quarters for Dualla and himself only after Kara left the Senior Pilots Bunkroom to move in with this Anders fellow.
It was all a bit of a frakking mess actually.
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Kara made a landing almost as perfect as Lee’s. She felt like all her worries had dissolved during the flight and maybe their friendship could somehow be salvaged. The smile Lee gave her as she took off her helmet made her stomach flip. Her own smile instantly fell from her lips. He noticed. She watched the anger suffuse over his face, he swallowed like he had a bad taste in his mouth. Finally Lee saw what made her smile fall.
Dee came waddling onto the deck and Lee had the decency to give Kara an apologetic look for his assumption. She shrugged it off with a bright false smile and got out of there as fast as she could.
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That night Kara took Sam to an unused storage room right near Lee’s and Dualla’s quarters. It was stupid and unnecessary and completely obvious. She didn’t care. Lee came here to think sometimes, he told her a few months ago. Why he told her, she refused to acknowledge, but it definitely wasn’t so she could use it to frak.
Sam was so drunk on her that he never cared where she wanted to do it. They were naked in no time and he had her pressed up against the back wall. She pushed his shoulders down until he dropped to his knees. Kara loved it when he went down on her; he was so very good at it.
She focused all her adrenalin from the afternoon’s flight into this raw act of release. He hooked her leg over his shoulder and began by teasing her with his tongue. She promptly lost her breath.
His hands gripped her hip and thigh and as his mouth became hot and insistent she nearly lost her balance and had to tangle her fingers through his hair.
She started gently rocking against his mouth and he grazed his teeth over her clit. She moaned long and bucked against him. The muscles in her stomach straining.
A brush of air flowed over her, she ignored it. It was hard to notice anything but the man between her legs. Sam kept circling with his tongue and then hitched her leg to spread her wider and began his assault in earnest. Kara’s head slammed against the wall. She arched her back and pressed him harder against her.
He groaned into her body and the vibrations made her orgasm burst upon her. He released her hip and thrust two fingers deep inside her, fluttering them in a way that heightened the sensation and made her eyes fly open in shock at the intrusion.
Lee was watching her. His face flashed permanently into her memory. Her eyes screwed shut as another intense wave pulsed through her and when she opened them again he was gone.
It wasn’t real. He was never there. At least that’s what she told herself.
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The Commander rocked his brand new granddaughter in his arms. She was absolutely beautiful. Dee was beaming and Lee was near bursting with pride. William looked closely at his son. Something was different. He had changed. And the way he brushed the hair from Dee’s face spoke volumes. Lee was finally settling into the choices he’d made.
The Commander wondered what happened to cause this change. He suspected that Kara released him in some way. He hoped that release went both ways.
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Out of the blue, with absolutely no warning, Sam proposed to her.
“Why the frak do you want to get married for?” She watched his face drop and doubt set in.
“Because I love you, that’s why.”
Her heart beat loudly against her ribs. The flip flop of her stomach made standing without support nearly impossible.
“I love you, too.” Her voice was small, but he definitely heard it.
The way his eyes widened, and then crinkled with a smile, made a lump form in her throat. She had never seen him look happier.
“Does that mean you’re saying yes?”
“Kiss me and I’ll think about it.” Lords, if he didn’t hold her soon she was going to collapse.
He sat on the edge of the bed and pulled her onto his lap. He kissed her. It was sweet and tender and stupidly made her think of Zak. The first time she tried this it didn’t end up so well. Was she brave enough to try again? Sam deepened the kiss and she couldn’t help melting into him. He was such a good thing in her life. She really didn’t deserve him.
“Please say yes, Kara.”
Her heart constricted and she pulled back to look into his eyes. No more fun, no more teasing. He was serious and wanted an answer.
Kara let all the possibilities and maybes of her life flash quickly through her mind. Would she be happier with anybody else? Would another man accept and love her as unconditionally as Sam?
She gave him the smile, the one she kept only for Lee. Her heart eased and lightened, her smile grew wider. “Yes.”
Relief swept over him, he buried his face in her neck and she stroked his back until he got his emotions under control.
Kara Thrace was now engaged for the second time in her life, and she couldn’t be happier.
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“Hurry up, I haven’t got long.”
“Do you want this done fast, or do you want this done right?”
“Fast. Because I don’t think we could ever do this wrong.”
He kissed her hard and bruising while working his fingers down her unbuttoned pants. She pulled his hand out and shoved down her pants, quickly kicking them off. He did the same and pushed her against the wall, his mouth hot on her neck, exactly the way she liked it.
She stroked his length, getting his full attention.
“Now?”
“Now!”
He hoisted her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He plunged into her like they’d been doing this everyday for the last ten years. She muffled her cry on his shoulder as he took her relentlessly. Her back was scraping against a rough patch on the wall; she let the pain anchor her in reality. Otherwise she was going to start screaming like some cheap whore from Picon, he was fucking her that good.
“Kara……so……incred…ible…frak……need…more…”
“Lee…oh…Lee…Lee”
They both came at the same time. Kara lost the feeling in her legs and wobbled as he set her feet back down. She turned and leant against the wall for support and to try and catch her breath. He pressed his damp chest against her back and nuzzled into her hair, breathing her in.
“You okay?”
“Uh, huh.” She nodded.
He kissed her shoulder and started getting dressed. “I’ll leave first. You look like you need a few minutes.” She could hear the teasing in his voice.
“Smug bastard.” She turned around and caught him staring at her. He was getting that look again. That lets run away together and leave this all behind look
She had no intentions of leaving Sam and she knew it was the same for him with Dee. No, what they had was all they could have. It wasn’t ideal and bad choices had been made by everyone. They didn’t do this often, very rarely actually. She was quite sure that no one even suspected. But it seemed the only thing to do that made her and Lee able to be around each other. They needed a way to bleed off the raw energy, to claim possession, because that was important. She knew that Lee took her out of male pride and jealousy. She let him take her because she liked to punish him for making the wrong choice.
It was all a bit of a frakking mess actually. They had their flying and now this. It was enough. It had to be.
fin