If I loved you 

If I loved you

Would I let you stay

Or should I just

Push you far away

Is it kinder

To keep you near

Or is that just me

Giving in to fear

Would it be fair

To let you share my pain

Or am I just afraid

Of being alone again

Is it really my choice

Should I tell you now

I should have said something sooner

I just didn’t know how

I didn’t think it mattered

At least not to you

Now I know you care for me

What am I to do

Either way I choose

I hurt you without trying

Thinking of our future

Only leaves me crying

I just never guessed

That this would come to be

Never once imagined

There’d be you and me

So do I lie to you

Pretend that I don’t care

Tell you to leave

That I don’t want you there

How will this affect you

What will it make you feel

Given that my secret is something

Time will ultimately reveal

If I love you

What must I do

Someone please tell me

What is best for you